It's not often that I share things about my personal life here on the blog. But today I have a few things that I want to talk about...mostly because I'm hoping that by sharing, I might be able to help someone else out there that's going through something similar. After all, if I can't use a platform like this to help others, what good is it, really?
|Photo by Saundra Savage|
This last year has been incredibly challenging for me and for my family. A lot of people have asked why John has been absent from the blog lately...and from my Instagram feed...etc. I've always tried to avoid the question. But I guess it's time to answer it. The truth is, we are now divorced. The divorce was actually just recently finalized. And because I respect his privacy, and the privacy of my children, I won't share any of the details. Suffice it to say that there have been challenges for several years, and - although it may sound strange - divorce really was the best option for our family.
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Because of these difficulties, I had major anxiety issues last year. My doctor prescribed me some anxiety medication. It helped get my emotions under control, but it also caused me to start gaining weight. In the last year and a half, I have gained 25 pounds. That has been challenging for me as well.
With all of these things going on, I started to feel sorry for myself. But then things changed, with some simple words from a dear friend of mine.
My friend Rowena is an interior designer as well. She and I have known each other for several years. She knew John and me when we were living in Massachusetts, and she was aware of our challenges. Her house is one of the homes that I feature in my book, and the day that I was there to photograph her house, she and I were able to have a heart-to-heart. She asked me how things were going, and I confided in her that we were in the process of getting a divorce. She could sense my sadness and my feelings of failure, but she said something to me that has made all the difference in my attitude.
She asked me if I could see the blessings. Could I see the blessings? I wasn't sure what she meant at first, so she started to point them out to me.
- I have a beautiful family
- I have a good job
- I was in the process of writing a book (something that had been a dream of mine since childhood)
She didn't really need to go on, I could see where she was going. I was being extremely blessed. The hand of The Lord in my life was visible in everything. I just needed to open my eyes to see it.
And since then, whenever I start to feel the weight of my life - the weight of being a single mom - the difficulty of being the sole provider for my family - I start counting my blessings. There are so many. The Lord is never invisible in anyone's life. Sometimes we are just blind to his blessings.
|picture courtesy of Matthew Mead|
I am so thankful that I had a friend who helped me to open my eyes so that I could see my blessings. So now as I move forward through this new life, as I start working on my next book (yes, I just signed another contract!), as I start to lose this weight, I won't allow myself to get discouraged. I will remember that I have been blessed beyond measure.
And please, my dear readers, if you are suffering discouragement, I urge you to open your eyes to the blessings in your life. They are there, I promise.