5.08.2011

Mothering~



Having children was a hard won victory for me.  The hubby and I tried for 4 years to have our first baby.  But finally, after what seemed like a million trips to the fertility specialist and at least that many different procedures, crying every month when I discovered I wasn't pregnant, finally conceiving and miscarrying, the first of our four perfect babies was placed in my arms at the hospital. 

My  OB had a tradition of singing a Swedish birthday song to every baby he delivered.  He had a beautiful voice.  But my eyes were only for my baby.  How I had longed for him.

And yet, even though I had dreamt of that moment everyday for all those years, I had no idea how quickly and how intensely I would fall in love with that beautiful little creature.  How my entire identity would change the instant he was born.  How I would forever be his mother.

And now, almost 11 years later, I have four beautiful children.  And I am insanely in love with all of them.  And I thank my Heavenly Father daily for the gift he has given me in them.  And I pray that I will be worthy of that gift.

And how grateful I am for my mother who gave me the gift of life, and who is, unquestioningly, one of the strongest women I have ever known.  And to my sweet mother-in-law who is as  much my mother as she is the hubby's.  I am so blessed to have these two wonderful women in my life to mother me, to give me advice, and to listen when all I want to do is complain. 

Happy Mother's Day.

10 comments:

catherine said...

i have never felt more in love as when i had my baby boys. i cannot even describe the feeling. this year, the younger will leave for college and the house will be empty. i am already crying about it. children truly are the most precious gift...happy mothers day!

MyBluePeacock said...

This is such a lovely mother's day post...congrats on your 4 wonderful children and for being blessed with two strong and wonderful mother's!!!!

Happy Mother's Day to you too....

Jennifer @ Rustic Renditions said...

What a beautiful post! Happy Mother's Day :)

Mandi@TidbitsfromtheTremaynes said...

Happy Mother's Day, Wendy!!

Christina Klas said...

This is a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing this story. A VERY happy mother's day to you.

janet said...

What a beautiful Mother's Day post..Happy Mother's Day to you..
Janet

Lindsay said...

This is so beautiful Wendy! :) Happy Mother's Day :)

aflowerinameadow said...

Beautiful! x

24 Homes said...

What a beautiful and honest post you wrote. Thank you so much. We won the battle too, I'm pregnant for 27 weeks after 7 years of struggeling. And very happy!
I hope you had a great mother's day yesterday and I wish you a great week. Greetings from the Netherlands,
Claire

24homes

adventuresindinner said...

So lovely. I remember all of those months/years of yet again not getting pregnant and now I still can't believe that she's here and her own wee person.